We are a-stimmin'!

Today is day 3 of stimms. I am starting to feel some discomfort. I know my ovaries are working as hard as they can. I am thankful for all my body is doing.

Tomorrow I have my first checkup. In the past I've gone and been a bundle of nerves. I can't help but feel pressure to "perform." Saying hello to my old familiar wand buddy and waiting to hear how many eggs my body can produce in a course of days with the help high dosages of drugs. The response has usually been "you don't produce the number of eggs one would at your age." I get it. I'm not going in with any expectation beyond the realm of possibility. I am trusting God, no matter what.

This time I will only compare myself with me. I know that all it takes is one. It doesn't matter that I have a diminished ovarian reserve...I still have the egg.

I want to believe that 2011 will be a year of overcoming challenges, of realizing dreams, of renewed belief in the positive aspects of life. I want to believe that there will be a light at the end of this tunnel.

I know there will be...but when?

Here's to believing that 2011 will be all that we hope it will be.