E2 Levels and all things hormonal

So my elevated E2 levels are pointing to the possibility that I have a diminished ovarian reserve. In fun terms this means that I have a lower amount of eggs than I'm supposed to for my age.

How does this change anything? It doesn't. It just sucks. Who wants to hear that there might be something wrong? Nothing changes.

I've got nothing else to say except that this is just another bump in the road.

On a another note, day 2 of BCP's and all is well.

Oh the IRONY!!!

Birth control pills.

What else can I say?

I have been trying to avoid all obstacles to getting pregnant and I have just finished swallowing what I once considered to be a little miracle pill.

The fact that BCP's are the first step in creating life is beyond me. I am happy, hopeful, and excited to finally have a real chance at this. I want to stay this way but realistically I know I will have harder days so I will be kind to myself. I will allow myself to have hard days when I'll want to cry or vent.

A part of me feels so ready to dive in! Today is officially the first day of this process. I will be on BCP's for the next 3 weeks. Side effects? Not sure.

Today is day 1 of putting a foreign thing in my body. There will be many more days like these to come.

A Variation on the 365 Days Project

I have never been so happy to get my period in my life. For the last year and a half getting a visit from the red biotch was another devastating blow to the heart. This time it marked a new beginning.

We have officially begun IVF--at least the baby steps. Tomorrow I will go in for a sonogram and will get BCPs (a little more on that tomorrow). I will begin Lupron in a couple of weeks.

If you would've told me that the prospect of getting injected by a needle daily would be the highlight of my day...I would've told you, you have the wrong junkie but its true! I want to start this process yesterday. In true fashion, I am impatient.

In order to chronicle the journey into the major leagues that is IVF, I have decided to do a variation of 365 days project. I will blog everyday for the next 7 weeks in order to share exactly what this IVF experience is like.

Many might think...what are you crazy? Answer is simple, no.
Some might suggest...sounds ambitious but how will you find time? Answer is I'm not that busy, although that is a good excuse not to do this. I may cash in on this somedays.
Others might assume that I'm doing this mainly for myself. Answer is this is only 10% true. I would like to be able to look back at what it took to be able to hold and love our children.

But what many don't know (except for my husband who loves me anyway)is that I scour and riffle through blog after blog of IVF journeys. I want to know what its like...particularly when there is a happy ending. Perhaps my story can provide the same for others; information, inspiration, hope, understanding, faith, and laughter.

Here goes....Here's to unwavering hope, God, faith, and the miracle of science.

Thanks for taking the time to read about my journey.